Let Me Be !

Forgive me Lord..

For I no longer want to be YOu!

Your plans can all wait..

For am tired of being you!

Never realised when a normal happy child,

Transformed into a wannabe perfectionist..

Big dreams , Strong aspirations..

Made way to reminiscenes, As consciousness around ceased to exist..

I want my old ways back..

I want to be a lesser mortal like the crowd around!

I want to fall, and not be able to stand back on my feet all by myself..

So that i can find a helping hand, And test my ground!

Why should it always be me 

To catch people when they stumble..

To give them a life when they lose it all..

To take shit and backstabs, and still stay calm and humble..

 

I want to commit mistakes, 

And not be able to rectify them,,

I wish to cry , shed some real tears..

And not  be able to raise my hands to wipe them..

The turbulence inside is hard to pen down..

I've heard you care for your men..

You made me this, Am not sure about what exactly u thought..

But this is it for me, I no longer can bear this pain..

Legend has it that Men were born to be men..

In my folly of trying to play you,

I failed, to my pleasure..

The beginning has been scripted, now guide me through.. 

Take your blessings and boons away,

And let it just be..

I wan't to be a normal man..

I just want to be me!

Providence and You.

Life is a journey , they say..

Strangers beyond count meet you on your way..

You phase out many of them..

Some stay put for a longer period of time..

But that day shall come,

When you chuck them out too..

For you, are one lonely traveller,

traversing cosmic distances on an elusive planet..

a planet inhabited by morons..

Morons, Just like you,, Just like me..

coming together to meet some end..

And setting out to look for newer ones ..

For a newer task ahead..

Providence , I believe is a strong yielding stick..

Directs you at times like a magical wand..

At times, comes down harshly on your rear,,

In the end, proving it's superiority on us..

You may scream out of disgust.

Or yell out of anger,.

Cry out of pain..

or beg for mercy...

U can laugh, make fun..

U can run , but not hide..

You can try ..

But providence shall finally rule high..

Surrender your decisions unto it..

And lie peacefully as you always wished to.

I can't join u in this endeavour of yours.

For am still in a mood to challenge the odds..

There is still a lot of strength left in this small heart of mine..

I bid u adieu forever..

As i have decided to move on.

I don't give a damn about ur worthless existence..

Go! Die the shameless death u deserve..

While i move on to the next milestone of my life..

Rest in peace..

I shall pray for your liberation..

Coz You can do no good to this world..

Sleep well..sleep forever.. 

And yeah..I must concede today..

It was never a pleasure having known you..

I can see it coming !

The time is near..

Yes, I have begun to sense it..

Prolonged Experiences make it clear..

My time is near..

And I dont really mind

For I Have grown so tired, just trying to be..

I need a lap to rest my head upon..

But it keeps eluding me..

I dont have the strength to put up a fight.

Resistance is not an option..

Succumbing to the devil's call, 

Seems the wisest and easiest of all..

I don't know if u see it ,

But i must concede..

I feel it coming..

This seems so real indeed!

Have so much left to do,

Some responsibilities unfulfilled..

But Tonight I want to be free  ..

In the memory of all the time that I've killed..

Time I killed with dope and caffeine..

With the conscious pursual of joblesness..

I wish to end all of it now..

To get rid of this self created mess..

The time is near ..

Hold me close dear..

'Cause whether u like it or not..

My time is near..

Neither is it a choice for me..

But the end is near..

Am sorry, I cant help folks..

The truth remains-

"My time is near.."

The Chase !

The burning sun, the nearly still air,

People on the asphalt road commuting,

n there amdist them, hastily walked a man in black,

with sweat all over his face, dripping..

With a heart beating like a horse galloping ,

gripped by the fear of the unknown ,

Cluelessly walking, locating the unseen,

intermittently kicking the odd roadside stone..

A hand waved at some distance,

Erupting a rage of unwanted emotions somewhere..

The unseen had been located,

to hell with everythin else, he just didnt care..

what followed was hours of bewilderness..

no ideas , only cluelessness..

He talked senseless shit,

the fear still churning his stomach pit..

time rolled by.. and once again,

He was there standing alone,

in the middle of a world working just fine,

yeah, he didnt want to go back home..

why remains the question still unanswered,

even he didnt know..

Stood there with frozen steps, forget the sun,

guzzling out smoke, deciding where to go..

He moved on, yes he did..

n got lost in the crowd...

a million thoughts flooding his mind,

n he knew why before u sow seeds, the field must be ploughed!

but no point realising anything now,

it was all over, the moment was gone,

All he was left with were some incredible memories,

And an unknown bliss,as he pondered till dawn..

This is life , as we know it,

Forget the ever troubling lows,

Find a reason to live, 

in small celebrations that it bestows..

We were born human,

we were born to Chase endlessly,

So chase, and u shall find peace,

Just like the boy i mentioned,who is now back home resting comfortably...