Monday, May 3, 2010

It happened one night..

If there was any one story I'd always wanted to narrate, It's got to be this one!
An experience I could die for!


This one is my tribute to THE TWO MEN, who gave me some of the best lessons of life!
I know I might just not be able to recreate the entire serenity out here..
But I could atleast try! And so, I did.. 

Here it goes-







A cold November night..
A deserted Delhi street!
Winter at its severest might..
Even street dogs making a retreat..

But there amidst all this..
Are Two men walking..
They are carrying some bags.. 
But why are they not talking?

The Yellow street lights ,
Shine brightly on their faces..
Both have their eyes wet with tears..
What the hell is wrong, any guesses?

The elder one is leading..
The younger lad is lagging behind..
He is finding it difficult to move..
and seems totally out of his mind..

The elder one looks asthmatic..
He is trying hard to breathe.. 
But is still walking as fast as he can..
Seems somewhere he urgently needs to reach..

They are together for sure..
But why isn't anyone saying anything?
Why are tears rolling down..
I don't understand a thing..

As the forced breaths reach his ears,
the younger lad this time offers help..
Give me the bag, U look tired..
It's fine, I will manage, was the reply..

Come on hurry, we might just miss the bus..
The elder man commands, speeding up a little..
Finally we have some words exchanged..
Silence however is rarely  brittle..

Both have again turned silent..
They are still walking..
The road seems never ending..
Have still no clue what's happening..

The bus station can now be seen..
Both of them quickly wipe off their tears..
Clear their throats and get ready ..
as the end of the sojourn nears..

Throughout the walking excercise..
One could feel emotions everywhere..
It was time to separate..
And everything suddenly seems so clear..

The bus is ready to leave..
The driver is blowing the horn..
Time seems to be racing..
it's already early morn..

They smile and hug each other..
Say their goodbyes..
There is silence again..
"say something! fools!" my heart cries..

The bus has started moving..
the younger lad gets inside..
Adjusts his bagpack..
and opens the window up wide..

He can't see the other man anymore..
Couldn't he wait for a while longer?
His checked eyes are now flooded..
he couldn't act any stronger..

As the bus approaches the ISBT exit, 
He sees a faint figure waving..
Clears his eyes and realizes it's him..
Ice-cold breezes , he's braving..

As the bus approches him,
the headlight flashes onto his face.
He could see a pain fiercer than his own.
"Regards" he shouts from the window..
"take care" he replied..

The bus sped away from the gate...
They are still waving at each other..
Till they disappear out of eah other's sight..
Lord! This has been one helluva night!

This younger lad inside the bus..
He is crying like a 5 yr old kid..
I realise how for the last one hour, 
I have seen emotions communicate..
Stronger than words.. Stronger than silence..

It was one life altering incident..
And I will surely never forget..
How one fine early morning,
I learnt the strange ways in which love communicates..
Why is it not always necessary to tell people ..
How you feel about them..
But how relieving it is at times,
To confess that you care,,
Why can we still hope..
Against all darkness, all bondages..
How love crosses all boundaries..
How omni-pervasive is it's might..
All this and a lot more questions were silently answered ..
By these two men, to me, that cold November night! 




















Sunday, April 25, 2010

Soak up the sun.

How do I explain..
My love for the scorching summer sun..
I just love the way
It burns inside..
And then chars us out here..
As if exacting it's revenge..

But I just don't complain..
I have fallen in love with it...
I love the fire that burns inside..
I just love the way it continues to burn..

For I love the feeling
when a bead of sweat..
tricles down my sidelocks..
Giving me a consolation that..
Yes , Am sweating it out..
No matter how futile it seems..
But yes, am sweating it out..

Don't curse the Sun,
It already is ..
Dying a slow death itself..
But sustaining the flame of life ..

It shall receede ,
When the limit is reached..
Do not doubt it's mercy..
Let it enjoy it's time..

The summers gonna be over soon..
Enjoy the Sun, the stillness in the air..
Who knows what a summer would be like
If the Sun just refused to shine..
Praise it's beauty..
While you still can..
The sun is our hero..
let it not die an unsung death..
It's not always fun..
But I just love the Sun!

Saturday, April 24, 2010

Never say Goodbye..

This one was created in December'09. When I first got to know how does it feel to part from people you hold close to your heart!
It was farewell time.. Psenti semites were about to leave.. And I wrote this down for one very special frnd! 
It's farewell time again friends.. Some of you are again , about to leave.. 
I never thought I'd ever publish this one..
But somehow tonight I realised the importance of this word- Goodbye.. and couldn't help putting it up..
This one is for you- all my psenti semite frnds.. To tell you guys that , I care!



You are about to leave..
but i dont wanna say goodbye to u..
You will  probably never return again..
but i dont wanna say goodbye to u..

I was never strong enpough to admit..
That i need you by my side..
I miss you when you are not with me..
I miss all those moments.. when together we laughed, together we cried..

Yes i was never strong enough..
to tell u that i care..
Was never strong enough to ask u to share a smoke..
Even as, through the corridor , I used to stare..

Yes.. I was never strong enough..
To tell u all those little things that were left unsaid..
Which gradually led us to two different worlds of ours..
And two separate ways that we tread..

Yes.. I took things for granted at times..
But that was just my sheer confidence in you..
That you will never separate ways..
But to err is human.. Me and you..

Let the past rest in peace ..
For we don't have much of the present in our hands..
The future remains uncertain..
But I commit to the tightening up of all left loose strands..

Yes you are about to leave..
But trust me.. I dont wanna say goodbye to u..
I believe there is still a lot o flife left for me..
To enjoy , like we once did, with u..

I hate letting my emotions out.
BUt I will make an exception today.
I will miss u my friend..
That's all I can say..

You are about to leave..
But I dont wanna say goodbye to u..
Just remember there is one guy somewhere..
Who will always there be for u..

Through all ups and downs of this life..
You shall find me ready next to u..
Yes.. YOu are about to leave..
But I shall never say goodbye to u..

Yes you got u got it right.
I wont say goodbye to u..
i hope to stay with you in your memories..
And that's why i shall never say goodbye to u..

Yes u got it right my friend..
This guy will never say goodbye to u..
Stay in touch brother..
It's about all those times, good and bad, shared between me and you..
Dont ever say goodbye to me..
Because.. I will never be able to say goodbye to u..
Yes bro, I will never say good bye to u..


Saturday, March 27, 2010

You just had to go!

You had to go..
Oh yes, I knew it then..
As i know it now..
You had to go..

When i first wrote to u..
At the back of my mind, 
I knew u had to go..
But if only you could be a little kind..
To spend some time..
For the sake of the effort..
Alas.. You could not..
As I said, U had to go..

I won't wish u luck ahead.
Nor say it was a pleasure knowing u ..
Whatever little i could..
you see, I ain't any holier than u!

Two separate worlds..
Two separate ways..
Two separate people..
How could I ask u to stay..
When providence had already decided..
Bags had to be packed..
As i always knew..
It was time for u to go..

Now That you are gone..
This is a goodbye from my side..
We can atleast pretend we had one..
And ,by the laws of prudence, abide..
Both of us shall be perfectly fine..
No doubts about that..
No regrets, As i always knew..
One day u had to go..
It turned out a little sooner than expected..
But how does it matter..
Both of us always knew..
You just had to go..

Saturday, March 20, 2010

Let Me Be !

Forgive me Lord..
For I no longer want to be YOu!
Your plans can all wait..
For am tired of being you!

Never realised when a normal happy child,
Transformed into a wannabe perfectionist..
Big dreams , Strong aspirations..
Made way to reminiscenes, As consciousness around ceased to exist..

I want my old ways back..
I want to be a lesser mortal like the crowd around!
I want to fall, and not be able to stand back on my feet all by myself..
So that i can find a helping hand, And test my ground!

Why should it always be me 
To catch people when they stumble..
To give them a life when they lose it all..
To take shit and backstabs, and still stay calm and humble..
 
I want to commit mistakes, 
And not be able to rectify them,,
I wish to cry , shed some real tears..
And not  be able to raise my hands to wipe them..

The turbulence inside is hard to pen down..
I've heard you care for your men..
You made me this, Am not sure about what exactly u thought..
But this is it for me, I no longer can bear this pain..

Legend has it that Men were born to be men..
In my folly of trying to play you,
I failed, to my pleasure..
The beginning has been scripted, now guide me through.. 

Take your blessings and boons away,
And let it just be..
I wan't to be a normal man..
I just want to be me!

Providence and You.



Life is a journey , they say..
Strangers beyond count meet you on your way..
You phase out many of them..
Some stay put for a longer period of time..
But that day shall come,
When you chuck them out too..
For you, are one lonely traveller,
traversing cosmic distances on an elusive planet..
a planet inhabited by morons..
Morons, Just like you,, Just like me..
coming together to meet some end..
And setting out to look for newer ones ..
For a newer task ahead..

Providence , I believe is a strong yielding stick..
Directs you at times like a magical wand..
At times, comes down harshly on your rear,,
In the end, proving it's superiority on us..
You may scream out of disgust.
Or yell out of anger,.
Cry out of pain..
or beg for mercy...
U can laugh, make fun..
U can run , but not hide..
You can try ..
But providence shall finally rule high..
Surrender your decisions unto it..
And lie peacefully as you always wished to.

I can't join u in this endeavour of yours.
For am still in a mood to challenge the odds..
There is still a lot of strength left in this small heart of mine..
I bid u adieu forever..
As i have decided to move on.
I don't give a damn about ur worthless existence..
Go! Die the shameless death u deserve..
While i move on to the next milestone of my life..
Rest in peace..
I shall pray for your liberation..
Coz You can do no good to this world..
Sleep well..sleep forever.. 
And yeah..I must concede today..
It was never a pleasure having known you..

Saturday, February 20, 2010

I can see it coming !

The time is near..
Yes, I have begun to sense it..
Prolonged Experiences make it clear..
My time is near..

And I dont really mind
For I Have grown so tired, just trying to be..
I need a lap to rest my head upon..
But it keeps eluding me..

I dont have the strength to put up a fight.
Resistance is not an option..
Succumbing to the devil's call, 
Seems the wisest and easiest of all..

I don't know if u see it ,
But i must concede..
I feel it coming..
This seems so real indeed!

Have so much left to do,
Some responsibilities unfulfilled..
But Tonight I want to be free  ..
In the memory of all the time that I've killed..

Time I killed with dope and caffeine..
With the conscious pursual of joblesness..
I wish to end all of it now..
To get rid of this self created mess..

The time is near ..
Hold me close dear..
'Cause whether u like it or not..
My time is near..
Neither is it a choice for me..
But the end is near..
Am sorry, I cant help folks..
The truth remains-
"My time is near.."