Saturday, March 27, 2010

You just had to go!

You had to go..
Oh yes, I knew it then..
As i know it now..
You had to go..

When i first wrote to u..
At the back of my mind, 
I knew u had to go..
But if only you could be a little kind..
To spend some time..
For the sake of the effort..
Alas.. You could not..
As I said, U had to go..

I won't wish u luck ahead.
Nor say it was a pleasure knowing u ..
Whatever little i could..
you see, I ain't any holier than u!

Two separate worlds..
Two separate ways..
Two separate people..
How could I ask u to stay..
When providence had already decided..
Bags had to be packed..
As i always knew..
It was time for u to go..

Now That you are gone..
This is a goodbye from my side..
We can atleast pretend we had one..
And ,by the laws of prudence, abide..
Both of us shall be perfectly fine..
No doubts about that..
No regrets, As i always knew..
One day u had to go..
It turned out a little sooner than expected..
But how does it matter..
Both of us always knew..
You just had to go..

Saturday, March 20, 2010

Let Me Be !

Forgive me Lord..
For I no longer want to be YOu!
Your plans can all wait..
For am tired of being you!

Never realised when a normal happy child,
Transformed into a wannabe perfectionist..
Big dreams , Strong aspirations..
Made way to reminiscenes, As consciousness around ceased to exist..

I want my old ways back..
I want to be a lesser mortal like the crowd around!
I want to fall, and not be able to stand back on my feet all by myself..
So that i can find a helping hand, And test my ground!

Why should it always be me 
To catch people when they stumble..
To give them a life when they lose it all..
To take shit and backstabs, and still stay calm and humble..
 
I want to commit mistakes, 
And not be able to rectify them,,
I wish to cry , shed some real tears..
And not  be able to raise my hands to wipe them..

The turbulence inside is hard to pen down..
I've heard you care for your men..
You made me this, Am not sure about what exactly u thought..
But this is it for me, I no longer can bear this pain..

Legend has it that Men were born to be men..
In my folly of trying to play you,
I failed, to my pleasure..
The beginning has been scripted, now guide me through.. 

Take your blessings and boons away,
And let it just be..
I wan't to be a normal man..
I just want to be me!

Providence and You.



Life is a journey , they say..
Strangers beyond count meet you on your way..
You phase out many of them..
Some stay put for a longer period of time..
But that day shall come,
When you chuck them out too..
For you, are one lonely traveller,
traversing cosmic distances on an elusive planet..
a planet inhabited by morons..
Morons, Just like you,, Just like me..
coming together to meet some end..
And setting out to look for newer ones ..
For a newer task ahead..

Providence , I believe is a strong yielding stick..
Directs you at times like a magical wand..
At times, comes down harshly on your rear,,
In the end, proving it's superiority on us..
You may scream out of disgust.
Or yell out of anger,.
Cry out of pain..
or beg for mercy...
U can laugh, make fun..
U can run , but not hide..
You can try ..
But providence shall finally rule high..
Surrender your decisions unto it..
And lie peacefully as you always wished to.

I can't join u in this endeavour of yours.
For am still in a mood to challenge the odds..
There is still a lot of strength left in this small heart of mine..
I bid u adieu forever..
As i have decided to move on.
I don't give a damn about ur worthless existence..
Go! Die the shameless death u deserve..
While i move on to the next milestone of my life..
Rest in peace..
I shall pray for your liberation..
Coz You can do no good to this world..
Sleep well..sleep forever.. 
And yeah..I must concede today..
It was never a pleasure having known you..

Saturday, February 20, 2010

I can see it coming !

The time is near..
Yes, I have begun to sense it..
Prolonged Experiences make it clear..
My time is near..

And I dont really mind
For I Have grown so tired, just trying to be..
I need a lap to rest my head upon..
But it keeps eluding me..

I dont have the strength to put up a fight.
Resistance is not an option..
Succumbing to the devil's call, 
Seems the wisest and easiest of all..

I don't know if u see it ,
But i must concede..
I feel it coming..
This seems so real indeed!

Have so much left to do,
Some responsibilities unfulfilled..
But Tonight I want to be free  ..
In the memory of all the time that I've killed..

Time I killed with dope and caffeine..
With the conscious pursual of joblesness..
I wish to end all of it now..
To get rid of this self created mess..

The time is near ..
Hold me close dear..
'Cause whether u like it or not..
My time is near..
Neither is it a choice for me..
But the end is near..
Am sorry, I cant help folks..
The truth remains-
"My time is near.."

Saturday, November 28, 2009

The Chase !



The burning sun, the nearly still air,
People on the asphalt road commuting,
n there amdist them, hastily walked a man in black,
with sweat all over his face, dripping..


With a heart beating like a horse galloping ,
gripped by the fear of the unknown ,
Cluelessly walking, locating the unseen,
intermittently kicking the odd roadside stone..

A hand waved at some distance,
Erupting a rage of unwanted emotions somewhere..
The unseen had been located,
to hell with everythin else, he just didnt care..


what followed was hours of bewilderness..
no ideas , only cluelessness..
He talked senseless shit,
the fear still churning his stomach pit..

time rolled by.. and once again,
He was there standing alone,
in the middle of a world working just fine,
yeah, he didnt want to go back home..

why remains the question still unanswered,
even he didnt know..
Stood there with frozen steps, forget the sun,
guzzling out smoke, deciding where to go..


He moved on, yes he did..
n got lost in the crowd...
a million thoughts flooding his mind,
n he knew why before u sow seeds, the field must be ploughed!

but no point realising anything now,
it was all over, the moment was gone,
All he was left with were some incredible memories,
And an unknown bliss,as he pondered till dawn..

This is life , as we know it,
Forget the ever troubling lows,
Find a reason to live, 
in small celebrations that it bestows..

We were born human,
we were born to Chase endlessly,
So chase, and u shall find peace,
Just like the boy i mentioned,who is now back home resting comfortably...


Friday, October 16, 2009

Reminiscence !

I once loved you , that’s so true..

But am afraid that was not meant for u..

U never understood, never appreciated..

Though the love has died, the affection has not yet depreciated.

 

The distances have made it grow stronger,

and healthier  for sure..

heavens bear testimony to the fact,

This one is indeed serene and pure..

 

I ought to thank u..

for teaching me things i never knew..

Loneliness can help find peace,

and that , relations which can last are only few..

 

I never complain..

I stopped doing that some years back..

Life is so good,with or without u..

With those memories still with me, nothing does it lack..

 

Relations are enjoyed together,

But even if thats not the case,

Memories that they engrave in our hearts,

Are worthy enough to happily embrace..

 

 

Glimpses of past, sometimes when am fast asleep,

leave a smile on my face that i can’t see..

But when i wake up so fresh and happy the next morning..

I wish let life, this way, be..

 

This piece of literary shit is a tribute..

To u.. to all those moments that made me what i am today..

Thanx for all this and more,

I have a debt upon you that i can never repay..

 

Those flashbacks have again started pinning my mind,

It’s time to give them their share of attention..

I have to retire now, can’t afford to let them go.

They are, afterall my most precious possession..

 

So, i bid u adieu..

with a message for u..

There were some people who cared for u..

But who still could not be yours..

If u can’t do anything more, atleast ensure..

They get one small corner in that big sweet heart of yours!

 

 

 

 

 

Saturday, August 15, 2009

A loser's promises to keep!

Change, they say, is the only thing permanent ,
but my life seems to be on a fixed circular track,
traversing through some fallaciously new places,
Finally to this joblessness, coming back...

months have passed since i last wrote something,
that doesnt mean i had some job to do,
just that i was trying to find,
something actually meaningful to do...

but the hopelessly idle bugger that I am,
never found somthing to look upto..
cause it's become more of a habit ,
to while away time as I always do..

I see people dying to make out the best of the life they have,
i see them finding satisfcation through even failed trials..
thats a better life atleast, considering
the pathetic imbalance of my phlegm, gases and biles..

I never thought i would one day crave to be like them,
the pretentious, big-time losers, that i always thought them to be..
But then the creator wanted us to be like this,
else how could u diffrentiate him from me?

At the end of the day, its not them but me,
who turns out to be the biggest loser,
'cause as i wish everyday that i better be like them,
not even an inch to the goal, do i move closer..

In my quest to be God,
No doubt,I miserably failed,
the purpose is not served,
life has completely ,off the track, derailed..


so, i would better try giving in my best,
to be as human, as ignorant as I can..
to be lost in the ashes of time,
Is the destiny of man..

there is still some time left, i guess..
for me to rest in peace..
But i think i should now retire to bed,
and try to lie in some hypothetical ease..

I wonder why my eyelids have stopped dropping,
it been ages since i peacefully slept,
seems it's miles to go before i sleep,
And a thousand promises that need to be kept...